 So I procrastinate, big deal. Who doesn’t, right? And what’s so bad with being a procrastinator anyway?
On a good day I’ll tell you that my best work is done under pressure, and say it with the utmost sincerity. On a bad day, I’ll swear to you that I’ll never procrastinate again! - and mean it until I find myself stressing again because I didn’t do what I was supposed to do when I was supposed to do it. As an artist, I find myself procrastinating when it comes to giving myself a kick in the behind to create outside the proverbial box, which is ironic because as an instructor, challenging oneself is what I promote. There is this battle that rages on inside of me - one voice says to play it safe and the other is dying to try new things, and unfortunately, 7 times out of 10, the safe side wins. The 10k question is ... why? This painting perfectly illustrates what I struggle with. For months and months and many more months, I’ve been so ready to paint BIG and to just let loose but always found an excuse not to start. I didn’t have the right substrate, didn’t have the right inspiration image, I wasn’t sure about my color choices...basically a lot of blah, blah, blah. So I bought and cut down the sizes I wanted, found the perfect inspirational image, decided on a color palette, and....still wasn’t mentally ready. I can’t do it, I am not skilled enough, I need to practice so more, basically a lot of blah, blah,blah. Sometimes it’s best to close both eyes, hold your breath, and JUST DO IT. So to my fellow procrastinators in arms, I challenge you to join me in letting loose, lletting go, and be free. What’s the worst that can happen? Let’s find out together.
Its been approximately 8 years that I have been serious in perfecting my skill. I have taking countless of in-person and on-line classes, always looking to learn something new and yearning to paint like 'her'. Well, here we are, 8 years later and I may not be too much closer to the real artistic me. Or am I? I may be closer than I think, if would only I own it. There have been 4 artists who have had a major impact on my artistic ability.
So what's my problem? The problem is I am trying to hard to paint like them and not putting in the time needed to develop my style. After 8 years, I am finally coming full circle. This past week has been very difficult for me, and I can't really say why. Just 2 days ago though, after watching yet another video from another artist, it hit me like a ton of bricks. I have been trying too hard to emulate other artists instead of perfecting my style. I needed to get back to what inspires me, so today I spent some hours reviewing an on-line class from Tonja Sell. And there it was again, and it couldn't be any clearer. Tonja's words were:
We live in such a fast-paced culture and it’s easy for that mind set to affect the way we approach our art. There are some things that simply require time and effort to develop. To really understand color, to develop a good color sense, you really have to explore it. You can understand color theory and still not understand color and how to use color to achieve what you want to communicate. So many of us have falling into the trap of wishing that our art work would be like someone else’s, but we don’t remember that they have been perfecting that craft for perhaps 20, 30, 40 years. Masters only become masters through time and effort. So much of what makes art work great is the things that are only learned through making discoveries on your own. You have to put the time in and explore and learn and grow through those experiences. So there it is. The universe has spoken and I am listening. It's time to stop searching and pay attention to what is in front of me and it's about time. When I don't get something done, my fall back answer is "I didn't have the time". That makes sense, right?
"Hey honey, my sock drawer is empty........Sorry honey, I didn't have time to wash clothes' 'Why didn't you work out today?.....Didn't have the time' I haven't had the time to work on my website, to take photos of my work and upload them to my site, to tape art classes and upload them to YouTube, to work on inventory for upcoming shows, to even make art.... See where I'm going with this? In my head, it sounds like a real good excuse but having to write it down makes it REAL. I always thought, if only I could stay home for a couple of weeks, I would do everything that needed to get done. NOPE, this forced vacation just smacked me across the forehead and made it very clear that my problem isn't time, it's time management.. So this is it guys, it's put up or shut up time. Guess which one it will be? |
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